when i can take pictures like this i will be happy.

you are perfecting circular breathing

you loomed up slowly on the horizon
blocking the sun like an ocean liner
when i discover i'm living in your shadow
it always comes as a surprise

but way up here
i'm spinning around a lamppost in the rain
way up here, i remember rain
& i'm whispering directly into your ear

you are perfecting circular breathing
i can't always tell when you're inhaling
so you make it look like you're always giving
but you're always storing little bits away
you're a bit away

but way up here
i'm dancing around a lamppost in the rain
way up here
it's pouring down
& i'm saying right into your ear

what does it take?
to stop getting carried away by the force of my love
you take my breath away
i'm starting to suffocate
break the outline of my body
break where i end & you begin
break, you came too far in
& out & in, & doubt & din again

every time we breathe out
we let out a little bit of ourselves
it'd be alright if we could exchange
but you don't want to
& i don't blame you
but i'm gonna wanna learn to play the didgeridoo too

because way up here
i'm dancing around that lamppost in the rain
way up here
rain on down
& I'm screaming, I'm shouting into your ear
& out & in, & doubt & din.

you know me, i love to lose my mind.

look down - the ground below is crumbling

look up - the stars are all exploding

it's the last day on earth
in my dreams
it's the end of the world
and you've come back to me
in my dreams

between the dust and debris
there's a light surrounding you and me

it's the last day on earth
in my dreams
it's the end of the world
and you've come back to me
in my dreams

and you hold me closer than i can ever remember being held
i'm not afraid to sleep now, if we can stay like this until

it's the last day on earth
in my dreams
it's the end of the world
and you've come back to me
in my dreams

in my head i repeat our conversations
over and over til they feel like hallucinations
you know me - i love to lose my mind
and every time anybody speaks your name i still feel the same
i ache, i ache, i ache inside

for my bambola.

kate miller-heidke
download here.
please do, it's absolutely gorgeous.

my favourite line:
in my head, i repeat our conversations
over & over til they feel like hallucinations

i can't fall in love with every single idiot i see

afraid of the neighbours out in the hall

i'm worried they'll hear us come through the wall

down in the car park, out in the street
out in the real world people are mean

i live in a shoebox, i live in a cell
and hearing my small talk
it's easy to tell that i don't belong here

just cause it works for you doesn't mean it works for me
i can't fall in love with every single idiot i see

i saw you with harry out on the town
did you ignore me, or the other way round?
yell over the music
can't find a seat
pushing past me
step on my feet

and this is a shoebox
this is a cell
feels like my skin belongs to somebody else
but I smile and suck it in

just cause it works for you doesn't mean it works for me
i can't fall in love with every single idiot i see

when i see i've had enough
and the seas are getting rough
i just need time
til everything is back to normal
and everything is as it should be
if everything is less than you hoped for
everything's okay by me


kate miller-heidke, shoebox

effing love this song.

current obsession

there was a guy at my school when i was in high school
we'd ride side by side in the morning on our bicycles
never even spoken or faced each other
but on the last hill we'd race each other

when we reached the racks we'd each go our own way
i wasn't in his classes, i didn't know his name
when we finally got to speak he just stared at his feet
and mumbled a sentence that ended with 'james'

i was young and caught in the crowd
i didn't know then what i know now
i was dumb, and i was proud
and i'm sorry
if i could go back, do it again
i'd be someone you could call friend
please please believe that i'm sorry

well he was quite a big guy, kinda shy and quiet
when the kids called him weird he didn't try to deny it
every lunchtime he'd spend walking by himself
round the boundary of the grounds til he heard the bell

well one day i found him, joined him on his walk
we were silent for a while until we started to talk
i told him my family were fighting in court
he said his step-dad and him always fought

we talked about music; he was into punk
told me all the bands that i liked were junk
i said i'd never heard the songs the sex pistols sang
i laughed back at him and then the bell rang

i was young and caught in the crowd
i didn't know then what i know now
i was dumb, and i was proud
and i'm sorry
if i could go back, do it again
i'd be someone you could call friend
please please believe that i'm sorry

it was after school in the afternoon
the corridors were crowded as we came out of the rooms
three guys i knew pushed him into the cement
threw away his bag and said he had no friends

he yelled that he did and he looked around
tried getting up but they pushed him on down
that's when he saw me, called out my name
and i turned my back, and just walked away

kate miller-heidke, caught in the crowd


going to see her in concert next month, yay :)